Today I woke up in a village surrounded by settlements, i have been here
for two days now and it seems so pleasant and peaceful that I find myself
wondering whether I should come for vacation.
The only noises you can hear most of the day are the bleating of the goats,
the occasional bark of the watchdog, chicken's chuckles and children's voices.
After weeks of morning duty at the checkpoint and agricultural gates
my spirit is sullied with the daily humiliations, indignities that many
have suffered here most of their lives.
This countryside calm only in appearance was necessary even vital to
maintain some kind of impartial balanced view of this world,
to transform mounting frustration and resentment into something
other than hate.
The neighboring house abridges three old women with whom, on account
of the language barrier, I can only exchange a smile,the customary palm
of the hand to the chest with a gentle bow of my head and : "Salam Aleikum!"
They sit on their terrace, halfway to a hilltop they no longer are allowed
to reach, not on account of age, but on account of the fears and
violence of their neighbors,settlers, who took over the hilltops all around.
Sit looking at their surrounded village which settlers covet and Israeli
soldiers slowly yet steadfastly subtract from them for "security reasons".
I feel my throat closing in, a deep sadness from the understanding that
this womenare someone's mothers, grandmothers and sisters,
that they too could be my family and that this land, this dignity
and this humiliations are also my own.
I leave this village behind today, but i leave also a part of my humanity
and yet i hope and know that these three kind old women will somehow
find a way in which to rekindle the fire within which is struggling.